thank you, thank you, thank you

There is so much I want to say, so much both of us want to say but we'll just start with Thank You.

We needed to take some time to just "breathe" after the service for Lila & Cole. We left town and holed up in a cabin and just tried to support each other. I think it was the right thing to do but I found it wasn't any easier to breathe there than it was here. This is not something that we can or even want to run away from. It's something that we want to learn to live with.

That's where all of you come in.

We had so many phone calls to us and our parents and so many cards of people saying "let us know if there is anything we can do". When we finalized the plans for the service and knew we were giving only one days notice, I figured we would have about 30 people be able to come. When we walked in that chapel and I saw at least 75 faces staring back at me, it literally took my breath away. I know there were even so many more that wanted to come and couldn't and we completely understand. To those of you who did come at the drop of a hat, we don't even know how to begin to say how grateful we are. One of the only things you can do for a parent in this situation is acknowledge their children. That's all we could ask and so many stepped up and did that for us.

This is how we will learn to live with this. With a lot of faith and knowing how much our children were loved and wanted and will be remembered, we will begin to heal.

I do want to ask something else of everyone and that is to please stay with us on this blog. Our journey took an unexpected turn, but it is NOT over. Lila & Cole are a part of our journey and they are an important part of our family tree. As we wait for answers and pray for guidance, we are going to continue on our journey and we still need your prayers and love and support.

We have no idea what God's plan is for us and what His timing will be. Regardless of our feelings right now, we will always turn to Him and we believe wholeheartedly that He has a plan for us and that He had a plan with Lila & Cole. We believe that there is a reason we had to go through this and we are dedicated to finding out what our purpose in all this will be.

With so much love and gratitude,
Sara and Steve